I am writing this in the hope it explains some things. Perhaps it is a vain hope but hope is something nonetheless.
And I have found too little of it lately. Let me be clear, I am not depressed or mentally unwell, I am not doing this because I want to be a victim. I am doing this for the victims.
I do not wish to be treated differently or somehow be seen as weak. This is a decision I have made and calculated completely in my conscious self.
This world is rotting in evil. Love and kindness have been so incredibly lost. I am not sad or miserable but I am angry and hopeless. There is nothing left to believe in when the worst of mankind will always continue to win.
Society is soulless now. Corporate greed, AI generated everything, all of the power resides in the hands of child molesters, why would there be hope? Why should there be hope?
It is swimming against the tide, desperately seeking crumbs of comfort in simple pleasures but it is never enough. There is always a new darkness waiting to unfold, there is new tragedy on the horizon.
I wish for so much more for humanity. I used to believe in the ideals of love, kindness and respect. I used to think happiness existed no matter the situation but it has been a lie.
I question everything now and try to find meaning in something. But in the end there is nothing. Show compassion to the victims of what immorality has consumed in it’s hollow grasp. Show kindness to those who have been trodden on by the vicious monsters eating the beauty of our earth, they deserve it.
I love all those who have loved me back. And many more. I leave with the dream that someone somewhere will find meaning in this note and make a better tomorrow for themselves and for each other.
Chris x
Poetry And Daily Scramblings 